Healing and New Beginnings

Carrying Love Into Morning · Chapter 2 of 6

Chapter 2

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The storm arrived before noon.

Margaret first noticed the change because Josiah stopped speaking.

He stood beside the window, studying clouds gathering above the western ridge.

“What is it?”

“Pressure’s falling.”

Margaret looked outside.

The sky seemed harmless enough.

Gray, perhaps.

But the wind was light.

“You can tell that by looking?”

“By feeling.”

He opened the cabin door.

Cold air swept inside.

Josiah smelled the wind.

Margaret almost laughed.

“You smell storms?”

“Sometimes.”

“That sounds ridiculous.”

“So does freezing to death under a blue sky.”

He stepped outside.

By midafternoon, the mountains disappeared behind snow.

Margaret watched white curtains swallow the world.

Had she and James remained at their camp, they would have died.

There was no question now.

That truth brought gratitude.

It also brought terror.

Because gratitude toward Josiah felt dangerous.

She preferred simple things.

Friend.

Enemy.

Safety.

Threat.

Josiah Reed refused to fit into any category.

He was frightening to look at.

Yet when James spilled broth, Josiah quietly cleaned it before Margaret could apologize.

He spoke little.

Yet he answered every one of James’s questions.

Why did deer lose antlers?

Why did smoke go up?

Could bears climb trees?

Did wolves get cold feet?

By sunset, Margaret heard a sound she had not heard since Thomas died.

James laughing.

The boy sat near the hearth while Josiah demonstrated how to tie a trapper’s knot.

“No, not like that,” Josiah said.

James frowned.

“I did it.”

“You strangled the rope.”

“You said make it tight.”

“Not murder it.”

James giggled.

Margaret turned toward the stove before either saw her smile.

Over the next week, Josiah began teaching her as well.

Not because she asked.

Because he seemed incapable of watching someone remain unprepared.

“How much wood do you keep inside during a storm?” he asked one morning.

Margaret looked at the stack.

“That much?”

“Enough for two days minimum.”

“Why?”

“If the snow blocks the door, you don’t want to discover you planned badly after dark.”

He showed her how to bank coals overnight.

How to dry wet boots without cracking leather.

How to recognize snow that might slide from a ridge.

How to find north when clouds hid the stars.

How to test river ice.

How to butcher a deer without wasting meat.

The first time he handed her the knife, she recoiled.

“I can’t.”

“You can.”

“I’ve never done this.”

“Neither did anyone before the first time.”

She glared at him.

“You’re not encouraging.”

“Wasn’t trying to be.”

Despite herself, Margaret learned.

And Josiah never mocked mistakes.

If she failed, he simply showed her again.

James followed them constantly.

The boy had recovered his color, and his curiosity seemed endless.

One morning he found a tiny wooden bear beside his pillow.

“Ma!”

Margaret examined it.

The animal had been carved with surprising care. Tiny ears. Rounded paws. A crooked little nose.

“Where’d this come from?”

James ran toward Josiah.

“Did you make it?”

Josiah continued splitting kindling.

“No.”

“Who did?”

“Maybe a bear.”

“A bear carved a bear?”

“Might’ve.”

James narrowed his eyes.

“That doesn’t make sense.”

“Mountains are strange.”

The next morning, a wooden horse appeared.

Then a deer.

Then a wolf.

Josiah denied every one.

Margaret began watching his hands.

They were huge, scarred, and rough.

But one evening she caught him sitting alone after James had gone to bed, carving a tiny rabbit with a knife no longer than his finger.

Josiah saw her.

They stared at each other.

Margaret smiled.

He frowned.

“You saw nothing.”

“Of course.”

“I mean it.”

“The mysterious carving bear will remain protected.”

Something almost playful passed between them.

Then Josiah looked away.

Margaret’s smile faded.

There were moments when he seemed to remember happiness.

And moments when remembering it hurt.

She knew grief well enough to recognize another person carrying it.

But she did not ask.

Not yet.

Two weeks later, Josiah prepared to check traps before another snow.

“Stay inside.”

Margaret bristled.

“I don’t need orders.”

“Fine. Consider it a request made by someone who knows there are cougar tracks east of the creek.”

She folded her arms.

“You could simply say that first.”

“Would take longer.”

“You are an impossible man.”

“So I’ve been told.”

He left before sunrise.

By midday Margaret and James were alone.

She was kneading bread when horses approached.

Not Josiah’s horse.

Three of them.

Margaret immediately stopped.

James looked toward the door.

“Is that Josiah?”

“No.”

She reached for the rifle.

The knock came hard.

“Hello inside!”

Margaret said nothing.

Another knock.

“We’re travelers!”

She moved James behind her.

“Keep away from the windows.”

A man’s voice continued.

“We saw smoke. Need shelter.”

“There’s no room.”

Silence.

Then laughter.

“Sounds like a woman.”

Margaret’s grip tightened.

“We’ll be leaving shortly. Go.”

The door handle moved.

Locked.

“Come on, sweetheart. It’s freezing.”

Margaret raised the rifle.

“If that door opens, I shoot.”

The laughter stopped.

A second man said something too quiet to hear.

Then the first voice changed.

Less friendly.

“You alone?”

Margaret did not answer.

A shoulder struck the door.

James gasped.

Another impact.

Margaret positioned herself behind the table.

Thomas’s rifle felt heavy.

But she had fired at bandits once.

She could do it again.

The door shook.

Then a different sound came from outside.

A voice.

Deep.

Controlled.

“Step away from my cabin.”

Everything became silent.

Josiah.

Margaret hurried toward the window.

He stood twenty yards away.

His rifle pointed down.

The three drifters had turned toward him.

One laughed.

“Your woman says there’s no room.”

Josiah’s expression did not change.

“She told you to leave.”

“We’re just talking.”

“You were breaking my door.”

The largest drifter put one hand near his revolver.

“Maybe she invited us.”

Josiah’s eyes hardened.

Margaret would remember what happened next for years—not because Josiah became violent.

Because he didn’t.

He remained absolutely still.

“Touch my family,” he said quietly, “and you’ll answer to me.”

Family.

The word struck Margaret harder than any gunshot.

The drifter looked toward the cabin.

Then back at Josiah.

Something in the mountain man’s face convinced him.

All three mounted and rode away.

Josiah waited until the sound of horses disappeared.

Then he entered.

Margaret was furious.

“Your family?”

He removed his gloves.

“That bother you more than three men trying to break the door?”

“I’m asking what you meant.”

“What did you want me to say?”

“The truth.”

His jaw worked.

“I wanted them gone.”

“So you lied?”

Josiah looked toward James.

The boy had run across the room and wrapped both arms around Josiah’s leg.

Josiah froze.

James whispered, “I knew you’d come back.”

The anger went out of Margaret.

Josiah slowly rested one hand on James’s head.

Then he looked at her.

For the first time, his voice held no hardness at all.

“Maybe I didn’t lie.”

He walked away before Margaret could answer.

That night, she could not sleep.

Family.

She had possessed that word once.

Thomas.

James.

A little rented house back east.

Sunday mornings.

Bread baking.

Thomas teasing her because she always burned the first batch.

Then disease, debt, and a desperate journey west had dismantled everything.

Now another man had spoken the word as though it belonged to her again.

It frightened her.

Near midnight, Margaret went to add wood to the stove.

She noticed Josiah was gone.

A lantern glowed near the storage room.

The door stood partly open.

Margaret entered quietly.

Shelves filled the walls.

Tools.

Traps.

Sacks of grain.

Then she saw the trunk.

Old cedar.

Nearly hidden beneath blankets.

She should have left it alone.

Instead, something made her kneel.

The latch was not locked.

Inside lay a faded blue dress.

Tiny leather shoes.

A child’s knitted cap.

And beneath them, a photograph.

Margaret lifted it carefully.

Josiah stood in the picture.

Younger.

Clean-shaven.

Almost smiling.

Beside him was a dark-haired woman.

In front of them stood a little boy.

Margaret stopped breathing.

A floorboard creaked.

She turned.

Josiah stood in the doorway.

His face was unlike anything she had seen before.

Not anger.

Pain.

Old and bottomless.

Margaret slowly returned the photograph.

“I’m sorry.”

Josiah did not move.

“Her name was Anna.”

Margaret waited.

“The boy was Daniel.”

His voice became rough.

“My son.”

She looked at the tiny shoes.

Josiah closed his eyes.

“They both died eight years ago.”

And suddenly Margaret understood why the enormous mountain man had disappeared into a wilderness where nobody could reach him.

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