Healing and New Beginnings

Carrying Love Into Morning · Chapter 1 of 6

Chapter 1

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By the time Margaret Sullivan heard the first wolf, she had stopped believing morning would save them.

The sound came from somewhere beyond the black wall of pines—a low, hungry call carried over the frozen Montana wilderness.

Her five-year-old son stirred beneath the blankets.

“Ma?”

Margaret tightened her arms around him.

“I’m right here, James.”

His teeth were chattering so violently that the words barely sounded like words.

Their fire had become a shallow orange glow beneath a crust of ash. Margaret had already burned nearly everything she could spare. Broken branches. A piece of the wagon seat. Two wooden storage boxes. Even the handle from one of her cooking utensils.

Nothing lasted against the cold.

Three days earlier, she had possessed two horses, sacks of flour, dried beans, preserved meat, winter blankets, ammunition, and enough provisions to reach the settlement her husband had spoken about before his death.

Then the bandits came.

Margaret closed her eyes as the memory rose again.

She saw Thomas falling beside the wagon.

She heard James screaming.

She remembered raising Thomas’s rifle and firing until the men finally disappeared with the horses and most of their supplies.

Thomas had already been gone by then.

She had buried him beneath frozen stones because the earth was too hard to dig.

There had been no preacher.

No wooden marker.

Only Margaret whispering the Lord’s Prayer while James stood beside her, crying into his coat.

Afterward, she had taken her son’s hand and walked.

And walked.

And walked.

Until the wilderness swallowed every direction.

Now James lay against her chest, his skin frighteningly cold.

Another wolf called.

A second answered.

Margaret reached for Thomas’s rifle.

“Stay behind me.”

James looked toward the darkness.

“Are they coming?”

“No.”

It was a lie.

Something moved between the trees.

Margaret raised the rifle.

Her hands shook from exhaustion, but the barrel remained pointed outward.

A dark shape emerged.

Not a wolf.

A man.

He seemed almost too large to be real.

Heavy furs covered his shoulders and chest. Snow clung to his boots and beard. His long brown hair touched his collar, and scars crossed a weathered face that looked as though the mountains themselves had carved it.

He carried a rifle in one hand.

Margaret lifted hers immediately.

“Stay back.”

The stranger stopped.

His eyes moved from her rifle to the boy beneath the blankets.

Then to the fire.

“That all the wood you got?”

“Stay back.”

He ignored the warning.

“That fire dies in an hour.”

“I said—”

“You’ll freeze soon after.”

Margaret cocked the rifle.

The sound echoed through the trees.

The stranger finally looked directly at her.

His eyes surprised her.

They were brown.

Not cold.

Not cruel.

Just tired.

“My name’s Josiah Reed.”

“I don’t care.”

“You should. Nearest cabin is mine.”

“We don’t need your help.”

Josiah glanced at James.

The boy shook violently.

“You don’t.”

His gaze returned to Margaret.

“He does.”

Margaret hated him for saying it.

Because he was right.

Another howl drifted closer.

Josiah turned his head slightly.

“Pack’s been following you.”

Margaret felt her stomach drop.

“How long?”

“Long enough.”

He lowered his rifle and removed something from beneath his coat.

Margaret tightened her grip.

Then she realized it was a small leather pouch.

He tossed it toward the fire.

It landed in the snow between them.

“Dried venison.”

Margaret didn’t move.

Josiah frowned.

“If I planned to hurt you, Mrs.—”

“Sullivan.”

“If I planned to hurt you, Mrs. Sullivan, I wouldn’t wait for the wolves to do half the work.”

The brutal logic of it frightened her more than reassurance would have.

James coughed.

Margaret looked down.

His eyelids fluttered.

“James?”

“I’m tired, Ma.”

“No. Stay awake.”

Josiah stepped forward.

Margaret swung the rifle toward him.

“I said stay back!”

He stopped instantly.

For several seconds, nobody moved.

Then Josiah spoke quietly.

“Your boy’s losing heat.”

Margaret knew.

“Cabin’s forty minutes uphill.”

“Forty?”

“If I carry him, less.”

“No.”

“Then carry him yourself.”

She stared at him.

The stranger did not argue.

He merely turned toward the mountains.

“Wait.”

Josiah stopped.

Margaret swallowed.

“If we go with you…”

His shoulders stiffened.

“What?”

“What do you want?”

The question seemed to surprise him.

“Want?”

“No man survives alone in these mountains by giving away food and shelter for nothing.”

Josiah’s face darkened.

For a moment, the stranger she had feared appeared.

“My roof has rules.”

Margaret pulled James closer.

“What rules?”

“You don’t steal from me. You don’t waste food. You don’t wander into a storm after I tell you one’s coming.”

“That’s all?”

Josiah looked away.

He had spent eight years alone with memories no stranger could see, and the sight of a woman clutching a dying child had opened a place in him he thought winter had buried forever.

But Margaret could not know that.

All she saw was a frightening mountain man.

And when he spoke again, his words came out harsher than whatever pain had formed them.

“If you come under my roof, you stay until the mountain opens. I need a household someday. Sons, maybe. Been alone too long.”

Margaret stiffened.

“No.”

His gaze snapped back to her.

“My body belongs to no man.”

Josiah’s jaw tightened.

He seemed ashamed almost immediately, though Margaret could not know why.

“Then forget I said it.”

“I won’t.”

“You shouldn’t.”

The honesty startled her.

He took another step away.

“My cabin’s still there whether you hate me or not.”

James whispered, “Ma…”

Margaret looked at her son.

His lips were turning blue.

Her dead husband’s rifle suddenly felt useless.

Pride could not warm James.

Fear could not feed him.

Distrust could not keep the wolves away.

She closed her eyes.

Then lowered the weapon.

“Take us there.”

Josiah said nothing.

He walked forward slowly, deliberately leaving his rifle in the snow before approaching James.

That detail stayed with Margaret.

He wanted her to know he would not touch them while armed.

He crouched.

James stared up at him.

“You’re big.”

For the first time, Josiah’s expression changed.

Almost a smile.

“So I’ve been told.”

James hesitated.

“Are you a giant?”

“No.”

“Sure?”

“Fairly sure.”

James lifted both arms.

Margaret’s heart twisted.

Her son trusted too easily.

Josiah carefully gathered him against his chest and wrapped his own fur coat around the boy.

James almost disappeared inside it.

Josiah rose.

Margaret retrieved the stranger’s rifle, then froze.

Josiah looked at her.

“Keep it.”

“You trust me with your gun?”

“No.”

“Then why?”

“Because you trust me even less.”

He began climbing.

Margaret followed.

The wolves followed too.

She saw them occasionally between trees, shadows moving through moonlight.

Josiah never hurried.

He kept James close with one arm and carried a long knife in the other.

After twenty minutes, Margaret stumbled.

Josiah turned.

“I’m fine.”

“You’re limping.”

“I said I’m fine.”

“You can lie to yourself when your boy’s warm.”

He waited until she caught up.

Then slowed his pace.

Finally, through a curtain of snow, Margaret saw an amber glow.

A cabin stood between the pines.

Smoke rose from a stone chimney.

Beside it were stacked cords of firewood, a small stable, traps, tools, and enough supplies to tell Margaret that Josiah Reed had not exaggerated.

He knew how to survive here.

The door opened beneath his hand.

Warmth rushed over them.

James whimpered.

Margaret almost cried from the sensation alone.

Josiah placed the child beside the hearth.

“Boots off.”

Margaret dropped beside him.

Josiah brought blankets, water, broth, and dry woolen socks.

He never touched Margaret unnecessarily.

Never repeated the ugly remark from the wilderness.

Never asked payment.

Instead, he remained near the fireplace until James stopped shaking.

Then he filled a bowl with stew.

Margaret noticed the meat.

It was nearly all in James’s portion.

Josiah himself ate broth, potatoes, and a crust of bread.

“You gave him yours,” she said.

Josiah shrugged.

“Boy needs it.”

Margaret studied him.

Her fear had not disappeared.

But something had changed.

Much later, after James fell asleep in the warmest bed, Margaret sat beside him with Thomas’s rifle across her lap.

Josiah stood in the doorway.

“You take the bed too.”

“I’ll stay here.”

“Suit yourself.”

“Where will you sleep?”

“Chair.”

“This is your cabin.”

“It was.”

Margaret looked at him.

“What does that mean?”

Josiah glanced toward James.

“Tonight it belongs to whoever needs it most.”

He closed the door softly.

Margaret remained awake for a long time.

Outside, wolves howled from distant ridges.

Inside, the enormous stranger slept beside the fire, his boots still on, a blanket barely covering his shoulders.

On the table sat three empty bowls.

And beside James’s pillow lay the first safe night Margaret had known since her husband died.

She told herself they would leave as soon as the weather cleared.

She told herself Josiah Reed was merely shelter.

Nothing more.

But before dawn, she awoke and found him kneeling beside the dying fireplace, adding wood without making a sound so James would not wake.

And for the first time, Margaret wondered whether the monster she feared had ever existed at all.

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