Healing and New Beginnings

Twelve at the Open Gate · Chapter 6 of 6

Chapter 6

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Three weeks after the attack, Cottonwood Ranch became the busiest place in the territory.

Silas hated meetings.

Unfortunately, everyone else seemed determined to hold them in his kitchen.

Judge Whitaker returned twice.

Marshal Cole came three times.

A newspaper reporter arrived from Wichita and was promptly told by Martha Parker that if he frightened Lucy with his questions, she would personally remove him from the property.

He believed her.

Red Willow families faced a difficult decision.

Their homes had been damaged or destroyed.

Winter approached.

Legal ownership might take months to resolve despite the evidence.

Joseph gathered the adults beneath the cottonwood.

“We need temporary places.”

Silas leaned against the tree.

“How temporary?”

Joseph glanced toward the ranch house.

“You regretting inviting twelve children to supper?”

“I’m regretting owning only one outhouse.”

Joseph laughed.

Within days, the answer appeared.

People built.

Not charity.

Not pity.

Community.

Mateo brought lumber.

Turner brought nails, tools, and two apprentices.

Lawson donated window glass.

Reverend Bell organized wagons.

Martha directed everyone despite nobody officially placing her in charge.

Four bunkhouses rose near the creek.

A communal kitchen was built beside the old smokehouse.

Silas surrendered an unused north pasture for temporary cabins.

The first snow came before construction finished.

That night fifty people ate supper inside Silas’s house, barn workshop, and newly roofed bunkhouse.

The ranch was loud.

Painfully loud.

Beautifully loud.

Silas stood outside the kitchen door holding coffee.

Joseph joined him.

“You’re hiding.”

“Yes.”

“From children?”

“From everybody.”

Joseph sipped coffee.

“You like it.”

Silas stared at snow.

“No.”

A snowball struck his shoulder.

He looked down.

Lucy stood ten feet away, horrified at her own courage.

Silas slowly put down his mug.

Lucy shrieked and ran.

He chased her.

Within thirty seconds, all twelve children were throwing snow at him.

Joseph laughed so hard he had to hold the porch rail.

Silas eventually surrendered beneath an avalanche of small hands and snow.

That night something changed.

Perhaps everyone felt it.

Cottonwood Ranch was no longer Silas Mercer’s lonely refuge.

It had become home to whoever needed one.

The legal case moved quickly once Benjamin Holt testified.

Crowe’s fraudulent claims were suspended.

Families gained protection while courts reviewed legitimate deeds.

Officials associated with the scheme were investigated.

The rail company, eager to distance itself from scandal, announced it would recognize validated property boundaries rather than Crowe’s proposed corridor.

None of it restored burned homes.

None restored stolen months.

But it created a future.

Still, one problem remained.

The twelve children.

Their families did not all belong to Red Willow.

Some had lost parents before the fire and had been living with relatives.

Two had no surviving guardians at all.

Little Lucy’s mother was alive.

Daniel had Joseph.

Mary had her aunt.

But Samuel and Ada had lost their grandmother months earlier.

Jacob’s uncle had died in the quarry after becoming sick.

Nell and David had no one anyone could locate.

For weeks, nobody discussed it around the children.

Then Daniel asked Silas directly.

“What happens to everybody?”

Silas was repairing harness leather.

“What do you mean?”

“When Red Willow gets rebuilt.”

“You go home.”

“All of us?”

Silas stopped.

Daniel’s face was careful.

Silas understood.

The children had become a family during danger.

Now safety threatened to separate them.

“I don’t know.”

Daniel stared at the floor.

“Lucy says we promised never to split.”

Silas set down the leather.

“Come here.”

Daniel sat beside him.

“Families change,” Silas said.

“That’s what people say before they leave.”

The statement hit hard.

Silas took time before answering.

“Sometimes.”

Daniel looked away.

Silas continued.

“But leaving one house isn’t the same as leaving one another.”

“You don’t understand.”

Silas almost objected.

Then stopped.

He did understand.

He knew what an empty chair could do to a room.

“I think I do.”

Daniel looked at him.

Silas spoke quietly.

“When Anne and Rose died, I decided loving people was dangerous.”

Daniel listened.

“I thought if nobody got close, nobody could be taken away.”

“Did it work?”

Silas smiled sadly.

“No.”

“Why?”

“Because I was still lonely.”

Daniel considered this.

“Then why didn’t you find another family?”

“I didn’t think I was allowed to.”

“Who said?”

Silas opened his mouth.

No answer came.

Daniel raised an eyebrow.

Silas chuckled.

“You’ve gotten irritating.”

“You said I could stay.”

“I’m reconsidering.”

Daniel smiled.

Then his expression grew serious.

“What if some of us don’t have homes?”

Silas looked toward the yard.

Samuel and Ada were feeding chickens.

Nell carried firewood.

David stood on a barrel trying to brush Winchester despite being far too short.

“Then,” Silas said slowly, “we make sure they do.”

The decision became larger than expected.

Joseph planned to rebuild at Red Willow.

Mary’s aunt wanted Mary with her.

Lucy refused to sleep unless her mother remained within sight.

Those children would eventually leave Cottonwood Ranch.

Silas realized the idea hurt.

That surprised him.

He had spent the first weeks hoping everyone would become safe enough to leave.

Now departure felt like loss.

Martha found him brooding beside the creek.

“You look ridiculous.”

“Thank you.”

“You’re welcome.”

She sat.

“They’re going home.”

“I know.”

“You want them safe.”

“I do.”

“And you want them here.”

Silas looked at her.

Martha nodded.

“Both things can be true.”

He stared at moving water.

“What am I supposed to do with that?”

“Grow up.”

He laughed.

Martha softened.

“You buried a wife and child, Silas. You buried yourself afterward. Nobody had the manners to tell you.”

Silas said nothing.

“Those children dug you back up.”

The following morning, Joseph approached him with papers.

“What’s this?”

“Guardianship applications.”

Silas stared.

“For?”

“Samuel. Ada. Nell. David.”

Silas looked up sharply.

Joseph smiled.

“They asked.”

Silas swallowed.

“They asked what?”

“If they could stay with you.”

The world became very quiet.

Silas looked toward the corral.

Four children pretended not to watch.

Badly.

David was hiding behind a post approximately half as wide as his body.

Silas rubbed his beard.

“I’m not exactly qualified.”

Joseph shrugged.

“You feed them.”

“That’s a low standard.”

“You keep them safe.”

“Still.”

“You listen.”

Silas looked at him.

Joseph continued.

“And they love you.”

Silas’s eyes burned.

He glared.

Joseph smiled.

“Don’t get dramatic.”

“I hate you.”

“I know.”

Silas walked toward the four children.

They immediately pretended to be fascinated by a bucket.

He stopped.

“So.”

Nobody spoke.

“Joseph says you’ve been plotting.”

Samuel kicked dirt.

Ada stared at her boots.

Nell finally whispered, “Would you send us away?”

Silas crouched.

“No.”

David looked up.

“Ever?”

Silas took a breath.

“Someday you’ll grow up and leave because you want to.”

David frowned.

“I don’t want to.”

“You’re seven.”

“I already decided.”

Silas laughed.

Ada asked, “Can we call this home?”

Silas could not speak immediately.

He finally nodded.

“Yes.”

Samuel’s eyes filled.

“Can we call you—”

He stopped.

Silas knew the word.

He also knew it was not a word anyone should be pressured to use.

“You can call me Silas,” he said. “Mr. Mercer. Old Goat. Whatever feels right.”

David smiled.

“Can I call you Pa?”

Silas’s heart broke open.

“Yes.”

David launched himself forward.

The others followed.

Silas found himself kneeling in the dirt with four children wrapped around him.

From the porch, Martha wiped her eyes and immediately denied doing so when Joseph looked at her.

Spring came.

Red Willow began rebuilding.

The children who returned there remained frequent visitors.

Every Sunday, wagons arrived at Cottonwood Ranch.

Twelve children always found one another beneath the cottonwood.

They still formed a circle.

But now they did not whisper because they were afraid Silas might hear.

Sometimes they prayed.

Sometimes they remembered people lost.

Sometimes they simply talked.

One evening Daniel asked Silas to join them.

Silas hesitated.

“That’s yours.”

Daniel shook his head.

“It was.”

He opened the circle.

“Now it’s ours.”

Silas stepped in.

Twelve children joined hands around him.

For years the cottonwood had marked the loneliest part of his property.

Now it became the heart of it.

And yet one last unfinished piece remained.

Silas still kept Anne and Rose’s bedroom closed.

Nobody entered.

Nobody asked.

Until Lucy did.

She stood beside the locked door one rainy afternoon.

“What’s in there?”

Silas froze.

“A room.”

“Why’s it locked?”

He looked at the brass key.

“Because I was afraid.”

“Of what?”

Silas stared at the door.

“Remembering.”

Lucy thought about that.

Then she put her tiny hand in his.

“Maybe remembering isn’t bad.”

Silas looked down.

Children had a way of saying unbearable things simply.

He unlocked the door.

Dust floated through soft sunlight.

Anne’s quilt remained folded across the bed.

Rose’s wooden horse sat on the shelf.

Silas stood motionless.

Then the children entered quietly.

Nobody touched anything until he nodded.

Ada picked up Rose’s picture book.

David stared at the wooden horse.

Nell opened the curtain.

Sunlight filled the room.

Silas began to cry.

Not violently.

Not ashamed.

He simply let nine years of grief leave him.

Four children held his hands.

Outside, rain washed the prairie.

And for the first time since burying his wife and daughter, Silas understood that opening his heart again did not erase the people he had loved first.

It honored them.

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