Healing and New Beginnings

The Road Silas Kept Inspecting · Chapter 4 of 6

Chapter 4

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Denver overwhelmed Lena.

The noise came first.

Train whistles.

Wagon wheels.

Street vendors.

Boots against sidewalks.

Doors opening and closing.

People everywhere.

After weeks in Silver Creek and the quiet Bar T valley, Denver seemed to move without ever breathing.

Lena gripped Silas’s hand as he carried her from the station.

“You said it was a town.”

“It is.”

“This is not a town.”

Silas looked around.

“Fair point.”

Dr. Nathaniel Mercer’s clinic stood three blocks from the station.

Mercer was younger than Lena expected.

Forty, perhaps.

Clean-shaven.

Careful eyes.

He examined her leg for nearly an hour.

He used metal instruments.

Measured angles.

Pressed against places that made Lena gasp.

Silas stood beside her through all of it.

Finally Mercer sat.

“The good news is the infection is under control.”

Lena looked at Silas.

“And the bad?”

Mercer appreciated the directness.

“The bone healed badly.”

“I know.”

“To correct it, I’ll have to break it again.”

Lena stopped breathing.

Silas felt her fingers close around his.

“Break it?”

“Under anesthesia.”

“Will it hurt?”

“Not while I do it.”

“After?”

Mercer did not lie.

“Yes.”

Lena looked away.

Silas crouched beside the examination table.

“You don’t have to decide this second.”

“Yes, I do.”

He blinked.

Lena stared at her useless left leg.

“I want to walk.”

Mercer leaned forward.

“I need you to understand something.”

She looked at him.

“I believe surgery gives you a good chance. But I cannot promise you’ll walk normally.”

“How good?”

“Better than if we leave it like this.”

“That’s enough.”

Silas’s throat tightened.

Mercer nodded.

“Tomorrow morning.”

That night they stayed at a boardinghouse.

Lena barely ate.

Silas sat across from her.

“Scared?”

“Yes.”

“Want to talk?”

“No.”

“All right.”

Five minutes passed.

“What happens if I die?”

Silas’s fork stopped.

“You’re not dying.”

“You don’t know.”

“No.”

She looked at him.

“You’re supposed to say I won’t.”

“I don’t make promises about things I can’t control.”

Lena frowned.

“You promised to come.”

“That I could control.”

“You promised not to give me to Jed.”

“I could control that too.”

“What can you control tomorrow?”

Silas thought.

“I can be there before.”

“And after?”

“Yes.”

“The whole time?”

“As much as the doctor allows.”

Lena looked at her plate.

“Promise?”

“Yes.”

The following morning, Mercer gave her ether.

Before the mask lowered, Lena clutched Silas’s hand.

“Don’t leave.”

“I’m here.”

“When I wake up?”

“I’ll be here.”

“You swear?”

“I swear.”

The operation lasted three hours.

Silas spent every minute walking the hallway.

He had walked another hallway years earlier.

Dr. Halloway’s small clinic.

Clara burning with fever.

Margaret already gone.

Silas had prayed then.

Begged.

Promised.

Threatened God.

None of it mattered.

When Mercer finally appeared, Silas could barely force the words out.

“Well?”

“The surgery went as well as I could have hoped.”

Silas gripped the back of a chair.

“Will she walk?”

“Too early to know.”

“But—”

“The bone is straight.”

Mercer placed a hand on his shoulder.

“That’s the first victory.”

Lena woke an hour later.

Pain hit before memory.

She cried out.

Silas was beside her instantly.

“It hurts.”

“I know.”

“You said you’d be here.”

“I am.”

Her eyes focused.

“You stayed.”

“Yes.”

She cried then.

Not from fear.

Not entirely.

Some tears come when fear discovers it is no longer alone.

Recovery was harder than surgery.

For six days Lena remained in Denver.

She developed a fever on the second night.

Silas did not sleep.

Mercer repeatedly assured him it was mild.

Silas believed none of it.

He sat beside Lena with a wet cloth.

At three in the morning she opened her eyes.

“You look terrible.”

Silas nearly laughed.

“Thank you.”

“Your beard is crooked.”

“That’s not medically possible.”

“It is.”

She fell asleep again.

The fever broke by sunrise.

On the sixth day Mercer fitted Lena with a heavy brace.

“You do not stand without help.”

“When can I?”

“Four weeks.”

“Four?”

“Maybe six.”

Lena groaned.

Mercer smiled.

“Children who argue usually recover well.”

On the train home, Silas bought her a book.

The Adventures of Robinson Crusoe.

Lena stared at the cover.

“It’s thick.”

“You read fast.”

“How do you know?”

“You read every label in the doctor’s office.”

“There was nothing else to do.”

“Now there is.”

She opened the book.

Halfway home she fell asleep with her head against his arm.

Silas did not move for two hours.

When the train reached Carson Junction, Marshal Pike was waiting.

His expression killed Silas’s relief immediately.

“What happened?”

Pike looked at Lena.

“Can we talk privately?”

“No,” Lena said.

Pike sighed.

“You’re becoming inconvenient.”

“So I’ve been told.”

They entered the station office.

Pike placed a telegram on the table.

“Amos Kline confessed.”

Silas read it.

Kline admitted Jed had paid him to weaken the wagon’s brake linkage.

Not cut it completely.

Weaken it.

Enough that it might fail on a steep descent.

“He says Jed told him he wanted to scare Cora into selling,” Pike explained.

Lena stared at the telegram.

“Did he know Mama could die?”

“Kline says no.”

“And Uncle Jed?”

Pike hesitated.

“He knew the road.”

Silas’s jaw tightened.

“He planned it.”

“Proving murder is different from proving sabotage.”

“But?”

“We have more.”

Pike removed a second paper.

“Jed talked in jail.”

“To who?”

“A prisoner named Morris.”

“What did he say?”

Pike looked toward Lena.

She did not blink.

“He said Cora should’ve sold while she had the chance.”

Lena’s face remained still.

“And?”

“He said the girl should’ve died too.”

Silas stood so quickly the chair fell backward.

Lena grabbed his sleeve.

“Don’t.”

He looked down.

She shook her head.

“He wants you angry.”

That stopped him.

The ten-year-old child was calming the forty-two-year-old rancher.

Silas slowly sat.

Pike continued.

“Jed’s lawyer is arguing the wagon crash wasn’t intended to kill anyone.”

“What does the prosecutor say?”

“Territorial charges for manslaughter, sabotage, forgery, child neglect, kidnapping, assault.”

Silas looked at Lena.

“That enough?”

She stared at the window.

“I don’t know.”

Neither did he.

Justice sounded simple until grief demanded a sentence large enough to replace a mother.

No sentence could.

When they returned to Silver Creek, half the town waited at the station.

Lena immediately tensed.

“What’s happening?”

Silas did not know.

Then the baker stepped forward.

Mrs. Finch.

She held a basket.

“For you.”

Lena stared.

“Why?”

Mrs. Finch’s eyes filled.

“Because I should’ve done more.”

Inside the basket were bread, cookies, preserves, and a small knitted scarf.

Puit stood behind her.

He looked ashamed.

“I saw you in that alley.”

Lena said nothing.

He swallowed.

“I told myself somebody else would help.”

Still nothing.

“I’m sorry.”

Lena looked at Silas.

He did not tell her what to say.

After a moment she looked back at Puit.

“You should be.”

The merchant nodded.

“Yes.”

“You saw me three times.”

His face fell.

“Yes.”

“And you didn’t do anything.”

“No.”

“Why?”

He had no answer good enough.

Finally he said, “Because helping would’ve made trouble with Jed.”

Lena looked toward her brace.

“I had trouble anyway.”

Puit lowered his head.

“You’re right.”

She did not forgive him.

Not then.

Silas was proud of her for understanding that apologies did not create obligations.

The people of Silver Creek had begun confronting their own silence.

Some brought food.

Others brought books.

The schoolteacher offered lessons at Bar T.

A carpenter repaired the ramp Silas had built.

But the gift that mattered most arrived from Reverend Collins.

Cora’s wooden box.

Silas stared at it.

“Where did you find this?”

“The church basement.”

“But you said she took it.”

“I was wrong.”

Collins looked embarrassed.

“Cora apparently switched the papers into the canvas trunk, then hid the empty box beneath old hymnals.”

Lena ran her fingers across the lid.

Inside was only one thing.

A small photograph.

Cora.

Lena.

And Lena’s father, Daniel Cade.

They stood in front of their cabin during summer.

Lena was younger.

Both legs strong.

Her father’s arm around her shoulders.

Her mother smiling.

Lena touched the image.

“I forgot what his face looked like.”

Silas sat beside her.

“No, you didn’t.”

“Yes.”

“You recognized him.”

“After I saw him.”

Silas looked toward the photograph.

“Memory changes.”

“Does Clara’s face change?”

The question caught him.

“Yes.”

“Does that scare you?”

“More than I like to admit.”

Lena handed him the photograph.

“Maybe you should have one.”

“One what?”

“A picture.”

“I do.”

“Where?”

He hesitated.

“In a drawer.”

“Why?”

Silas did not answer.

That evening Lena made him take Clara’s photograph out.

It had been inside his bedroom dresser for three years.

Six-year-old Clara sat on the porch wearing a white summer dress.

Her hair was dark like Margaret’s.

Her grin was crooked because she had lost a front tooth.

Lena placed Clara’s photograph beside her family picture on the mantel.

Silas stared.

“I don’t know if I want that there.”

“Why?”

“Because I’ll see it.”

“That’s what pictures are for.”

He almost told her children should not lecture adults.

Then remembered Lena had survived more than many adults ever would.

He left the photograph there.

The weeks passed.

Lena’s brace came off.

Dr. Halloway examined her.

“Time to stand.”

She looked terrified.

Silas stood in front of her.

“Ready?”

“No.”

“Good.”

“That doesn’t make sense.”

“Most important things start before we feel ready.”

She gripped his hands.

Her right foot touched the floor.

Then her left.

Pain flashed across her face.

Silas held steady.

“Don’t let go.”

“I won’t.”

Lena pushed upward.

Her arms trembled.

Her injured leg shook violently.

For two seconds she stood.

Then three.

Then five.

She collapsed against Silas.

“I did it!”

He caught her.

“Yes.”

“I stood!”

“Yes.”

She was laughing and crying.

Silas realized he was too.

Mrs. Henley wiped her eyes with her apron.

Dr. Halloway pretended to study his instruments.

Lena looked at Silas.

“I’m going to walk.”

He could not promise.

But for the first time, he believed it.

Then Marshal Pike appeared in the doorway.

His expression was grim.

“Silas.”

Silas turned.

“What?”

“Jed’s trial starts next week.”

Lena’s smile disappeared.

Pike looked at her.

“And the prosecutor wants you to testify.”

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