Healing and New Beginnings

Room for All Their Names · Chapter 4 of 6

Chapter 4

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Jack closed the bedroom door.

“Start at the beginning.”

Emily looked toward the window.

Sheriff Weaver remained in the yard below, speaking with Eli.

She had spent weeks trying not to think about Daniel’s final days because every memory seemed to reopen the grave.

Now she had no choice.

“Daniel began feeling sick two days after we camped near a trading station on the Platte.”

Jack pulled a chair closer.

“What station?”

“Rawlins Crossing.”

His expression changed slightly.

“You know it?”

“I know of it.”

Emily continued.

“There were six wagons there. Maybe seven. Daniel did some repair work for a man whose wheel rim was splitting.”

“Name?”

“Silas Crowe.”

Jack became still.

“You’re sure?”

“Yes.”

He stood.

Emily frowned.

“What?”

Jack walked to the window.

“Crowe isn’t a traveler.”

“Who is he?”

“Land broker. Sometimes cattle buyer. Sometimes thief, depending who you ask.”

Emily swallowed.

“Daniel argued with him.”

“About what?”

“I didn’t know then.”

Jack turned.

“And later?”

“The night before Daniel became sick, he showed me a notebook. Said Crowe had been selling the same land claims to different families.”

Jack cursed quietly.

“Daniel discovered it?”

“He recognized signatures.”

Daniel had been meticulous.

That had been one of the things Emily loved most about him.

He remembered handwriting.

Measurements.

Dates.

Amounts.

At Rawlins Crossing, a frightened settler had asked Daniel to read a claim document because the man’s English was poor.

Daniel had noticed the witness signature looked identical to one on a different claim he had inspected weeks earlier.

He began asking questions.

Wrong questions.

Emily told Jack everything.

“Daniel believed Crowe had partners in at least two land offices. They sold worthless or duplicated claims to people moving west. By the time families discovered the fraud, Crowe had disappeared.”

“Did Daniel confront him?”

“Yes.”

Jack rubbed his jaw.

“What happened?”

“Crowe laughed.”

Emily remembered that laugh.

Silas Crowe had been tall, clean-shaven, and better dressed than any man had a right to be on a dusty trail.

He had looked at Daniel as though honest men were amusing.

That evening Daniel had returned to their wagon angry.

“He said we were leaving at daylight.”

Emily’s voice tightened.

“But that night, someone brought him whiskey.”

Jack’s gaze sharpened.

“Who?”

“A young man from Crowe’s camp. Said it was payment for repairing the wheel.”

“And Daniel drank it.”

“Yes.”

The following morning Daniel complained of stomach pain.

By afternoon came vomiting.

Sweating.

Weakness.

Emily had assumed food poisoning.

So had everyone else.

But before Daniel lost consciousness, he had forced the leather document case into Emily’s hands.

“He told me if anything happened to him, I should take it to a federal land office.”

“Did he say Crowe poisoned him?”

“No. He wasn’t sure.”

“But he suspected.”

“Yes.”

Jack paced once across the room.

“Why didn’t you tell Weaver?”

“Because I didn’t know who to trust.”

“Fair.”

Emily’s eyes filled.

“And because Daniel was dying.”

She pressed both hands over her belly.

“I stopped caring about Crowe. Or the papers. Or anything else.”

Jack sat again.

“Where exactly did you hide the case?”

“Beneath the driver’s seat. There was a false board Daniel built.”

“If the person searching your wagon knew where to look…”

“They may have it.”

Jack stood.

“You’re staying here.”

Emily gave him a tired look.

“I’m already staying here.”

“I mean you’re not leaving this house.”

“You don’t need to order me.”

“Yes, apparently I do.”

“Jack.”

“Crowe has killed before.”

Her face went still.

“You know that?”

“Can’t prove it. But men connected to his deals have disappeared.”

Emily stared toward the covered cradle.

“Then Daniel…”

Jack did not answer.

She whispered, “They murdered him.”

“We don’t know that yet.”

But his expression said he believed it was possible.

Emily’s grief changed.

For weeks it had been sorrow.

Now anger entered it.

Someone might have stolen Daniel not through disease or misfortune, but greed.

Her husband had died while she held his hand.

Their child would never know him.

All because Daniel had found men cheating vulnerable families.

Emily’s eyes hardened.

“I want those papers back.”

Jack almost laughed.

“You nearly died yesterday.”

“I didn’t ask whether we should ride after Crowe tonight.”

“You were thinking it.”

“I was not.”

“You’re a terrible liar.”

Emily folded her arms.

Jack pointed.

“And don’t get angry.”

“You told me to stay angry.”

“That was during the storm.”

“You don’t get to change the prescription.”

Despite himself, Jack smiled.

Emily saw it.

The smile transformed his face.

For one second he looked ten years younger.

She forgot what she had been saying.

Jack noticed her staring.

His smile vanished first.

Something awkward entered the room.

Emily looked down.

“Sorry.”

“For what?”

“Nothing.”

A knock saved them.

Margaret entered with broth.

“You two fighting?”

“No,” Emily said.

“Yes,” Jack said.

Margaret handed the bowl to Emily.

“Good. Means she has strength.”

Jack left to speak with Sheriff Weaver.

For the next week, the mountain became a small world.

Emily remained mostly in bed.

The bleeding stopped.

The baby continued moving.

Margaret stayed three days before deciding Emily was stable enough for her to return home.

Before leaving, she gave Jack extensive instructions.

He listened like a soldier receiving battlefield orders.

Emily found that unexpectedly touching.

“No lifting.”

“I know,” Jack said.

“No stairs.”

“I know.”

“Watch for fever.”

“I know.”

“Pain, bleeding, dizziness—”

“I know.”

Margaret narrowed her eyes.

“And if labor begins?”

Jack’s confidence disappeared.

Margaret smiled.

“Thought so.”

She spent another twenty minutes explaining.

Emily listened from the bed.

Jack looked increasingly uncomfortable.

When Margaret finally finished, he rubbed the back of his neck.

“You could stay.”

“No.”

“Why not?”

“Because Mrs. Watkins delivered a baby three days ago and has six other children.”

Jack frowned.

“You trust me with this?”

Margaret glanced at Emily.

“No.”

Emily laughed.

Jack glared at both women.

“But I trust Emily to tell you when you’re being an idiot.”

“That seems to happen often,” Emily said.

After Margaret left, Jack transformed his house.

He moved a comfortable chair into Emily’s room.

He brought Daniel’s carpenter chest upstairs.

He found every surviving piece of the cradle Daniel had built.

One evening Emily woke from a nap to hear hammering downstairs.

She ignored it for several minutes.

Then curiosity became unbearable.

She eased herself out of bed.

Jack had forbidden the stairs.

Technically, she only needed to walk to the landing.

She moved carefully.

Below, in the main room, Jack knelt beside Daniel’s cradle.

He had assembled half of it.

Emily covered her mouth.

Jack looked up.

His face darkened instantly.

“What are you doing out of bed?”

She ignored the question.

“You’re building it.”

“Finishing it.”

Emily descended one step.

Jack stood.

“Don’t.”

“One step.”

“Back.”

“You sound like I’m one of your horses.”

“My horses listen.”

Emily laughed.

The baby moved.

She placed a hand over her belly.

Jack’s irritation vanished.

“Pain?”

“No.”

“Sure?”

“Yes.”

Jack stared for another moment.

Then Emily looked at the cradle.

“Daniel carved those flowers.”

Jack followed her gaze.

“He was good.”

“He wanted to build furniture someday.”

“He could’ve.”

Emily swallowed.

Jack returned to the cradle.

“I’ll finish it tomorrow.”

“Jack?”

“What?”

“Thank you.”

He nodded.

Two days later, Sheriff Weaver returned with news.

They had found tracks.

One rider had left Emily’s wagon and traveled toward Rawlins Crossing.

But something else had happened.

“The false compartment was opened,” Weaver said.

Emily’s heart sank.

“The case?”

“Gone.”

Jack cursed.

Weaver continued.

“However, whoever searched the wagon missed something.”

He handed Emily a small folded paper.

She recognized Daniel’s handwriting instantly.

Her hands shook.

The note had been wedged behind the seat brace.

Emily unfolded it.

If Crowe learns I copied the names, trust no agent from Rawlins. The original list is not with the claim papers. I hid it where only Emily will recognize the place.

Emily read the line twice.

Jack watched.

“Do you know what he meant?”

“No.”

Then she stopped.

A memory surfaced.

Daniel kneeling beside the wagon one evening, carving something into wood.

Emily had teased him because he was always working.

“What are you making now?”

“A place nobody would look.”

At the time she had thought he meant the cradle.

Emily turned toward the assembled cradle in the corner.

“Jack.”

He followed her gaze.

They crossed the room.

Emily touched the carved flowers.

One rose in particular was thicker than the others.

Jack inspected it.

“There’s a seam.”

Using the point of his knife, he loosened a tiny wooden panel.

Inside was rolled paper.

Emily stopped breathing.

Jack removed it.

A list of names.

Dates.

Claim numbers.

Payments.

More than forty families.

And at the bottom, several signatures.

One belonged to Silas Crowe.

Sheriff Weaver let out a low whistle.

“That can bury him.”

Emily touched Daniel’s handwriting.

Her husband had known.

He had known he might die.

Yet his final concern had been protecting strangers from the same men who might have killed him.

Emily began crying.

Jack stood close but did not touch her.

She surprised both of them by taking his hand.

“I want justice.”

“You’ll get it.”

“Promise?”

Jack looked down at her.

He had once believed promises were dangerous.

But some promises were not predictions.

Some were commitments.

“Yes,” he said. “I promise.”

That evening, Sheriff Weaver departed with a copy of the list.

The original remained hidden.

Days passed.

Then weeks.

Emily’s pregnancy reached thirty-two weeks.

Then thirty-three.

Each additional day felt like a victory.

She began eating downstairs with Jack under strict conditions: he carried her.

She complained every single time.

He ignored her every single time.

Their conversations grew longer.

Jack told her about his childhood.

Emily told him about Daniel.

Neither name became forbidden.

One evening, they sat near the fireplace while snow began falling outside.

Emily noticed Jack staring at the flames.

“Anna?”

He looked at her sharply.

She immediately regretted saying the name.

Margaret had accidentally mentioned it once.

“I’m sorry.”

Jack remained silent for so long Emily expected him to leave.

Instead he said, “She liked snow.”

Emily waited.

“She used to wake me up when the first snow came every year.”

His mouth lifted faintly.

“Like I hadn’t seen snow before.”

“What did she say?”

“‘Jack, look.’ Every year. Same thing.”

Emily smiled.

“You loved her.”

“Yes.”

“And Samuel.”

“Yes.”

Jack looked toward Daniel’s completed cradle.

Emily followed his gaze.

“You can love people who died without betraying people who are alive.”

Jack stared at her.

The room changed again.

He looked at Emily differently.

Not as a stranded widow.

Not as a responsibility.

As a woman.

Emily felt it.

And for the first time since Daniel’s death, she felt something that brought almost as much guilt as comfort.

Her heart moved.

Not away from Daniel.

Toward life.

She looked down.

Jack stood.

“I should check the horses.”

He left before either of them said something they were not ready to hear.

The following morning, riders appeared on the lower trail.

Six men.

Sheriff Weaver was not among them.

Jack watched from the porch.

Something about their formation bothered him.

Then the lead rider lifted his head.

Even from a distance Emily recognized him.

Silas Crowe.

Jack stepped back inside.

“Upstairs.”

Emily’s blood went cold.

“Is that—”

“Yes.”

Jack took the rifle from above the door.

“Go.”

“What does he want?”

“The list.”

“How does he know we have it?”

“Doesn’t matter.”

Emily looked toward the window.

Crowe’s men spread out around the property.

Jack locked the door.

“Emily.”

“What?”

“Do exactly what I tell you.”

The same words he had spoken in the storm.

Only this time Emily did not argue.

Because she could see it in his eyes.

The danger outside had come specifically for her.

And Jack Dawson intended to stand between it and everything she had left.

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