Healing and New Beginnings

Bread for the Dawson Children · Chapter 5 of 6

Chapter 5

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Everything happened in less than five seconds.

Edward Harcourt's hand disappeared beneath his coat.

Samuel saw the pistol before anyone else seemed to understand what was happening.

"Olivia!"

He shoved her aside.

The gunshot cracked through Main Street.

Samuel felt heat slice across his shoulder.

Marshal Rourke tackled Edward.

Sheriff Quinn drew his weapon.

People screamed and scattered.

Samuel hit the ground on one knee.

For a terrible instant Olivia believed he'd been shot through the chest.

"Samuel!"

She dropped beside him.

"I'm fine."

Blood soaked his shirt.

"You are not fine!"

"Shoulder's grazed."

Edward struggled beneath Rourke.

"You ruined everything!" he shouted at Olivia. "Everything!"

The marshal wrenched the pistol from his hand.

"Keep fighting and I'll add attempted murder."

Edward stopped.

Samuel sat back against a hitching post.

Dr. Pierce ran from across the street.

Olivia pressed both hands to Samuel's wound.

"This is twice."

Samuel grimaced.

"What?"

"Twice you've nearly died since I met you."

"First one wasn't my idea."

"Neither was this!"

Despite blood and panic, Samuel smiled.

"You're yelling."

"I am aware."

"You yell pretty."

"Samuel Dawson, if you attempt to charm me while bleeding—"

He kissed her.

Right there on Main Street.

Not the hesitant kiss from the kitchen.

Not grief meeting hope carefully.

A real kiss.

Olivia froze.

Then kissed him back.

Martha Bell, standing ten yards away, announced to nobody in particular, "About time."

The entire street erupted into nervous laughter.

Even Dr. Pierce shook his head.

"I'm trying to examine a wounded man."

Samuel looked at Olivia.

"Later?"

Her cheeks were bright red.

"Only if you remain alive."

"Motivation."

Edward watched them from the dirt.

For perhaps the first time in his life, he understood he had lost something he had never truly possessed.

Control.

Rourke pulled him upright.

Edward looked at Olivia.

"This isn't finished."

She stood.

"No, Edward."

She held Samuel's hand.

"It is."

Legally, however, matters took months.

Edward was transported east under federal authority while Massachusetts officials reopened investigations into Harcourt financial dealings.

His father attempted to distance himself.

Crowley's testimony made that difficult.

Dozens of missing trust payments were uncovered.

Families who had believed their inheritance gone forever learned otherwise.

Jonathan Bennett's name, stained by accusations Edward's family had spread after his death, was publicly cleared.

Olivia received the official notice by telegraph in October.

She read it at Samuel's kitchen table.

Then she sat without speaking.

Samuel was repairing a wooden toy horse.

"What?"

She handed him the telegram.

He read.

DR. JONATHAN BENNETT EXONERATED OF ALL ALLEGED FINANCIAL MISCONDUCT. INVESTIGATION CONFIRMS ACCOUNTS MANIPULATED BY HARCOURT ASSOCIATES.

Samuel set it down.

"Your father got his name back."

Olivia nodded.

Tears slid quietly down her cheeks.

Samuel crossed the room and held her.

That autumn, something changed between them.

The danger had passed.

What remained was harder in some ways.

Ordinary life.

Olivia returned to the repaired schoolhouse.

Samuel returned to cattle.

The children grew.

Daniel learned to crawl and immediately proved himself determined to die by household accident.

Emma learned entire sentences.

James and Joseph discovered mud.

Olivia stayed at the schoolteacher's cottage in town again.

That had been her decision.

Samuel told himself he respected it.

He hated it.

Every evening the cabin felt too quiet without her.

The first time Emma realized Olivia wasn't sleeping there anymore, she stood by the door and cried.

"Livvy home."

Samuel crouched.

"Miss Olivia has her own home."

Emma shook her head violently.

"Livvy home."

Samuel's heart broke a little.

"Yeah."

He stared toward town.

"Feels that way."

That Saturday Olivia came to visit.

Emma collided with her knees.

James and Joseph shouted simultaneously.

Daniel crawled toward her at astonishing speed.

Samuel leaned against the porch post.

"Looks like you've been missed."

Olivia lifted Emma.

"I missed them."

"Them?"

Her eyes found his.

"You too."

That should have been enough.

It wasn't.

Samuel wanted more.

But he couldn't determine whether wanting Olivia was selfish.

One evening he visited Rebecca's grave.

Winter clouds gathered over the mountains.

He sat beneath the cottonwood.

"I don't know what I'm supposed to do."

The grave, predictably, offered no answer.

"You'd like her."

Wind moved through dry leaves.

"Maybe that's what makes it worse."

Samuel stared at Rebecca's name.

"I loved you."

His throat tightened.

"Still do."

He had spent a year believing love worked like a room with one chair.

If another person sat there, Rebecca must leave.

But Olivia had never displaced Rebecca.

She had simply made the room larger.

Samuel began to understand.

"You'd tell me I'm being stupid, wouldn't you?"

A cottonwood leaf landed in his lap.

Samuel laughed softly.

"Thought so."

Olivia had her own reasons for keeping distance.

She loved Samuel.

That fact had stopped being debatable.

But Edward had taught her the danger of allowing marriage to become dependency.

She had crossed half a continent to become Olivia Bennett again.

Not Edward's future wife.

Not Jonathan Bennett's grieving daughter.

Herself.

She feared marrying Samuel might dissolve that independence, even though Samuel had never asked her to surrender it.

Martha Bell saw through her immediately.

"You love him."

Olivia nearly dropped the teapot.

"Mrs. Bell."

"Martha."

"This is inappropriate."

"I'm sixty-one. I have earned inappropriate."

Olivia sighed.

"Yes."

"Yes what?"

"I love him."

"Then why do you look miserable?"

"Because love isn't the only consideration."

"Good. Means you have sense."

Olivia explained.

Martha listened.

Then asked, "Has Samuel asked you to stop teaching?"

"No."

"Control your money?"

"No."

"Tell you where you're allowed to go?"

"No."

"Object when you rode to Laramie despite him wanting you safe?"

"He hated it."

"Different question."

"No."

Martha sipped tea.

"My husband and I fought for thirty-seven years."

Olivia blinked.

"That doesn't sound encouraging."

"It should. Most fights were about whether chickens belonged in the kitchen."

Olivia laughed.

Martha smiled.

"Marriage isn't the absence of disagreement. It's discovering whether the person beside you believes you still belong to yourself."

Olivia became quiet.

"And Samuel?"

"That man nearly poisoned himself trying to wash cloth diapers because he wouldn't let Rebecca do all the work. I suspect you'll retain your identity."

Olivia laughed again.

Then cried.

Martha pretended not to notice.

The first snow arrived early.

Olivia finished lessons late and began riding home after dusk.

Halfway there, she found Samuel waiting beside the road.

"What are you doing?"

"Escorting you."

"I've ridden this road alone a hundred times."

"Snow."

"I can see it."

"Cold."

"I noticed."

He looked miserable.

Olivia smiled.

"Samuel, are you attempting courtship?"

His horse shifted.

"Possibly."

"You're terrible at it."

"Been occupied."

She laughed.

They rode together.

At her cottage door, Samuel dismounted.

"Olivia."

Something in his voice changed.

She turned.

"I have a question."

Her pulse quickened.

Samuel removed his hat.

Then James's voice came from Samuel's wagon parked behind the cottage.

"Papa! Joseph threw my boot!"

Olivia stared.

Samuel closed his eyes.

Four children popped their heads from beneath blankets in the wagon.

"You brought them?"

"Couldn't find anyone."

Joseph shouted, "Papa say marry!"

Samuel's face went blank.

Olivia's mouth dropped open.

James shoved Joseph.

"You weren't supposed to tell!"

Samuel rubbed his forehead.

"This isn't how I planned it."

Olivia began laughing.

She laughed until tears came.

Samuel stared at her.

"Can I still ask?"

She tried to compose herself.

"Please."

Samuel stepped closer.

"I can't promise easy."

"I know."

"I've got four children, a ranch that breaks something every week, and an impressive ability to get bitten or shot."

"Yes."

"I still love Rebecca."

Olivia's smile softened.

"I know."

"And I love you."

The words settled between them.

No hesitation.

No guilt.

Samuel continued.

"I don't need a mother for my children."

Behind him Joseph whispered, "But Emma does."

James shushed him.

Samuel almost smiled.

"They need people who love them. And I don't need someone to fix this ranch. I need the woman who makes me want to come home before dark."

Olivia's eyes filled.

"I won't ask you to stop teaching."

"You had better not."

"And I won't pretend I won't worry when you ride off chasing murder witnesses."

"Fair."

"I want a partner, Olivia."

He took her hand.

"If you want the same."

Olivia looked past him.

Four small faces stared from the wagon.

Emma waved.

"Livvy!"

Olivia laughed through tears.

Then she looked back at Samuel.

"Ask properly."

He dropped to one knee in the snow.

"Olivia Bennett, will you marry me?"

She let him wait exactly three seconds.

"Yes."

The children exploded.

James cheered.

Joseph threw the other boot.

Emma shouted, "Livvy home!"

Daniel began crying because everyone else was loud.

Samuel rose.

Olivia kissed him beneath falling snow.

And for several perfect seconds, there was no Edward Harcourt.

No grief.

No fear.

Only a widowed cowboy who had once believed love was over.

A schoolteacher who had crossed the country to reclaim her life.

And four children celebrating because someone they already loved had finally promised to stay.

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